“God–you’re my God! I can’t get enough of you! I’ve worked up such hunger and thirst for God, traveling across dry and weary deserts. So here I am in the place of worship, eyes open, drinking in your strength and glory. In your generous love I am really living at last! My lips brim praises like fountains. I bless you every time I take a breath; My arms wave like banners of praise to you.” –Psalm 63:1-4, The Message
This morning I reflected on this pslam, and it really echos my heart and what God has been teaching me lately. Madeline has been having a rough couple days. She hasn’t been sleeping well, and it’s been exhausting for both of us. She had been consistenly sleeping 5 hours at night, but lately she’s been waking every 3 hours during the night. She also used to sleep great during the day, but lately she wakes about 40 minutes or so into most naps. This is the point when babies typically shift from active sleep to deep sleep. The deep sleep is so important for healthy development, but Madeline has a hard time moving into it. If she’s only sleeping 40 minutes of active sleep during each nap, she’s missing out on the more important deep sleep. Obviously I want her to get good rest–for her sake and mine.
It’s been exhausting and draining, yet through it all, it has caused me to depend on God more. It’s caused me to seek His help, and to say like David, “I can’t get enough of you! I’ve worked up such hunger and thirst for God, traveling across dry and weary deserts.” Ultimately all I can do is ask God for His wisdom and strength. Though I’m tired, I can choose to trust that He will give me the strength, rest and help I need. He promises to take care of me, so I trust that He will. Madeline may continue to struggle with this, but even if she does, God is with me. He promises that He will never leave or forsake me.